tired of waiting

is it better to be alone?
or half the time upset and half happy
or worse 70% sad and 30% happy?
or is love measureable in such terms?
whether issit really worth our while, time and feelings.

ambitions we all have,
time waits for no one.
april was set. pushed to may.
now i cant even see may.
miss june perhaps?
wat am i waiting for? she no longer has meanings
and neither measureable.

do i plan for one or two ?
why do i even plan for a physical two
when i there had never been a physical two here?
haha

painfulpink in a misty pink fog.
~a hot shower to wash the cobwebs away.