feeling abit lost now since there's no more tasklist for studio. in 2 weeks time it's midcrit. feeling mixed emotions now. dunno where to start. dunno wat to do. scare do the wrong things then kanna slam by BaoZhaTou. Last week i was still feeling fine, then after this week's studio then feeling quite in the pits again. The weather has gone cold now, and im getting cold feet. haha, dualism. Both from the weather and from midcrit.
But i still procastinate.
I rather read pple's blog or read online news than to start thinking what i should present for next week's studio.
I keep putting it aside. I rather shower. eat a meal. eat a pocky. type an email or even surf online when i know i shouldn't be. sigh. feeling really low now.sigh. deep deep sigh.and my head is tilted to the right side as i sigh again.
a dried up creak
a sagged skin
a prune
maybe even dried beehoon.
i forgot to buy ham again.
i feel like having another cup of coffee.
miss pengz is not online
either is WJ.
NOBARDY.
april is a bad bad month.
even when i was in NUS. submission period. no holidays. horrible weeks in and out. sleepless nites. terrible razor cut crits, snipe remarks. print problems. model making, finger cuts, double bend back. nites under the studio table (not me though)...spend alot alot of money but not on myself. see the sun rise and set. even the sun gets to sleep. wat can be worse?
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