tired

it's days like these when i just want to sleep and forget that there is a tomorrow.

And it's not becos i didnt have enough sleep. it's becos im tired of drawing and cadding and thinking. it's mentally torturing and physically exhausting. i feel so empty. sometimes a panic rushes through me. do i have enough time? do i have to cad this drawing out? is it important or am i just wasting my time cadding?

then there are times when i get overly confused. lost when there is direction. drown when there is no sea. suffocating when there's so much air around me. exhausted when i just woke up. nobody knows, they know but i don't. who knows exactly? beats me.

just the other day, wj was re-acting his lunch conversation with the allemand over his slip disc. the poor guy woke up one morning in pain and not knowing the number to call for help, reached out for his hp and dialed to his colleague, imploring him to come over to his apt and pick him up to a hospital. he laid in bed waiting for 4 hours till his colleague arrived. hospitalised in the end.

'why didnt you call him again?'
Because he was too embarassed to do so. But he was a jolly fellow and didnt mind being teased by wj and the others.

hey does anyone know the number to call for help in melbourne? since now that jubes and googie are no longer here.

i wish tomorrow is samedi.