Wj has left for HK. i wept a few tears...actually twice.
his flight was 240pm this afternoon, and we arrived at the airport at 1pm, checked in and had our lunch at Hungry Jacks...the cafeteria was very crowded...the weather was wet and grey...the skies were blanketed with heavy clouds....my heart was just as heavy...at the time flew to 2pm, i reminded Wj of the time, he asked for his bag, as he unzipped his bag, he saw the present i secretly laid inside while he was getting our lunch, he looked surprised and happy and sad, i like to see him surprised and happy, but then it's a farewell gift, so it came with a tinge of pain too...i saw his face, my heart just wrenched...anyhow he got his departure customs form to fill...
and by the time he finished it was 210pm....we, or maybe me...reluctantly left my seat at the cafeteria and made my way to the departure gates...it was quite painful. i guess all goodbyes are such. tears were hard to keep...i managed to, for a few minutes...but WJ didnt just go through the gates in a swift...and just hugging him there made me cry again. i know i will see him again, it's silly but just really painful to see him come and go ALL THE TIME. sometimes i think i should be numb or get used to it by now, after 1 and a half years...but the feelings just never go away, especially when im at the airport. last night when he was packing his luggage, i was so upset to see him go...i went to the toilet to fiddle some stuff...and look at his watch and ring on the table...and asked a few stupid questions, reminding him not to forget to take this...remember to take that...and then i cried.
nobody knows how i feel from now. cos im alone again.
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