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yeah! thank you so much elle and pengz...my darling gals...i received ur post yesterday together with the velley pretty scarf and the card!!!

will post the images up another time cos these few days have been raining...not much sunlight...tsk tsk...just as blue as me.

brrr...

im wearing socks tonite to sleep.

lost sheep

feeling abit lost now since there's no more tasklist for studio. in 2 weeks time it's midcrit. feeling mixed emotions now. dunno where to start. dunno wat to do. scare do the wrong things then kanna slam by BaoZhaTou. Last week i was still feeling fine, then after this week's studio then feeling quite in the pits again. The weather has gone cold now, and im getting cold feet. haha, dualism. Both from the weather and from midcrit.

But i still procastinate.

I rather read pple's blog or read online news than to start thinking what i should present for next week's studio.
I keep putting it aside. I rather shower. eat a meal. eat a pocky. type an email or even surf online when i know i shouldn't be. sigh. feeling really low now.sigh. deep deep sigh.and my head is tilted to the right side as i sigh again.

a dried up creak
a sagged skin
a prune
maybe even dried beehoon.


i forgot to buy ham again.
i feel like having another cup of coffee.
miss pengz is not online
either is WJ.
NOBARDY.
april is a bad bad month.
even when i was in NUS. submission period. no holidays. horrible weeks in and out. sleepless nites. terrible razor cut crits, snipe remarks. print problems. model making, finger cuts, double bend back. nites under the studio table (not me though)...spend alot alot of money but not on myself. see the sun rise and set. even the sun gets to sleep. wat can be worse?

waiting....

WJ just wanted to cheer me up last nite since he couldnt be there personally to celebrate with me...so he let me in on a secret....
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im getting an idog for one of my presents! he couldnt get the pink one for me cos they are not in the making anymore...apparently the white ones are selling better then the blues and pinks. anyway....WOOHOO! and im gg to name him SHIMO! and im gg to dress him in a pink tee, and pink diamante BLINGBLING collar and a pink leash!!!

and yes...... SHIMO is a HE, i dun care if he gets an identity crisis for wearing and owning pink stuff. for all i know dogs are suppose to be colour blind. so...there, he wouldnt know a thing at all. and pink doesnt mean it's a SHE.

hmm... should i get him a pink dishbowl???

after the lows...it just cant get lower.

look what i got from the mail today!!! it's from my mum and sis...a red hot adidas sling bag for me to go out with and 2 beautiful birthday cards...my mum even drew a inside the card...and my dear sis made a card for me...and wrapped my present in green wrapper sashed with a silky beige ribbon.

and although studio was really sucky today, after class, 5 of my studiomates stood outside waiting for me and sang me a belated birthday song!!!
thank you so much Marcia, Suchon, Adre, Nicole and Serine!!!! i was very very touched.

mood:

sometimes MSN doesnt connect all

i have finished watching desperate housewives but u are still not online. i miss u. although sometimes we ask the same qns about each other over msn... but i still want to know wat u eat for lunch and dinner...was ur tummy fine this morning...did u have ur regular milk or skip brekkie again.

and how's the hot water in the shower...whether have u received my last mail...is the weather really hot? how's ur work coming along, do u have to go for meeting again...wat did u wear to work today...


and i want to tell u wat i had for brunch...
when im gg to shower...wat movies they are having this weekend, what i feel like having for dinner tonite and even let u know that i have cravings for chocolate at 3am in the morning or have smith chips in the middle of the nite.

i'll tell u again and again.
and u tell me urs again and again


everyday.
and we are still not tired of it.
i miss you.

alone yet not so... i guess

i guess this will be my first birthday spent without a cake. no wishes to make. no candles to blow out. all alone in my apt.the only birthday song i heard was WJ singing to me at the stroke of midnite.


but hey...

really grateful to those who remembered my birthday...shilynn who msned me at the stroke of midnite to wish me, xiuwen and joy who wished and hugged me this afternn...it was really comforting to know that im not so alone in this apt, jubes and goog who left me a greeting on my tagblog...and lastly, elle who never forgot my birthday and wished me on msn as well...and of cos my mother who emailed me this morning to wish me as well cos she couldnt get thru my phoneline last nite to wish me personally as i was on the phone with someone singing a slightly off tuned birthday song...

thank you so much gals.